unhappy :(

hari ini g tanding d tiara kasih. tp ada yang aneh. g menang, tp g ga ngerasa seneng. ngerasa ga ad semangat lagi. g sendiri bingung kenapa bisa begitu. padahal kan g paling semangat biasana klo cup. i've no passion on it. no motivation again. i'm feeling empty, empty and empty. what should i do?? God please answer my pray. give me Your Hand to me.

aku di dalam keterpurukanku.

g masi bingung ma diri g ndiri. ternyata post terakhir g itu salah besar. buktina, sekarang g dah bener2 ga tahan, i really dunno what should i do. SWEAR! part of my life has already gone. sumpaah, idup g thu dah keq ga ad artina. serasa ilaaang banget. g bingung mesti gimana lagi. serba salah. God, answer my prayer please. i really need her. i don't want to miss her. only 1 thing that i asked to You. just give a chance to me. i REALLY NEED it God. pleaseee. i need her beside me.

aku terimaaa

kenapa di bulan Oktober ini, uda kaya bulan kutukan buat g yaa?
berbagai macam cobaan terjadi di bulan ini. jujur rasa sakitna ngebekas banget.
tapi entah mengapa 3 minggu di bulan ini berlalu, g mulai sadar. Th kasi kita ujian untuk memproses kita buat jadi dewasa. g sadar selama ini g sangat kekanak-kanakan.
g sadar selama ini g masih egois. but, just give me a change to be your good friend and i will show it how serious i am.
aq dah sadar seberapa parahna kesalahan aq.
And my prayer "God i know Your will is the best for me, maybe it just a time, but when the time it's over i know and i trust that something good will happen to me. Thanks God for teaching me to be more mature. Thanks God for Your blessed to me. Thanks God for my family, Thanks God for my friend. Thanks God for my church, Thanks God for my community. Thanks God for talents that You give it to me. and so much more Thanks that i couldnt said it because You give me so much beautiful things to me. and in the name of Jesus, i've already pray and believed. Amen."

it's over but someday we will start it again.

it's really over, but not "at least" we were over.
i believe, that we will start it again.
and when we start it again it will never end.
i love you more than anything, i love you with my deepest heart.
i'll never love another girl except you. i promise i will learn how to be more mature, how to be more love you.
i know it's just a time to change us to the better life.
you know it's hard for me.
but i will force it.
to show you that i really love you. and i did it devoutly.
let the time teach us to love each other.
teach us to love our weakness.
then let the time prove it.

PS: I L U more than anything.

finally

ocha suda pulang dari singapore. yei. haha.
btw, kemaren ga bisa update blog. it's quiet busy yesterday.
jelas, maren pulang skul, g kalang kabut nyariin kunci hum g. dah bingung nyari kunci ternyata kebawa ma didi. alhasil 1 1/2 jem g terdampar d depan hum. terus dah gitu, cma sempet makan, mandi ma ol FB bentar. abis itu langsung ke rumahna emak bikin tugas sejarah. trus g langsung pegi k gereja bwad evaluasi tahunan multimedia mpe malem gtu. nyampe hum dah ga bisa ngapa2in. jadina g langsung tidur dhe. hehe.
hari ini juga bisa d bilang agak sibuk s, g baru pulang sparing d skul. cape setenga mampus setenga idup. tapi, harus tetep semangat! 2 more days before santo andreas cup. ayo guys we can go to the final! sepertina bentar lagi g tepar dhe. jadi g update segini aja yaa.
bye2, GBu all. keep your passion on God!! Be blessed n be impact! :)

day 4

wah, dah 4 hari ocha d sing. ga kerasa yaa. hoho.
well, hr ini dah masuk skul lagi. wah, perjuangan banget ne. nahan mata. trus tadi lagi emak pake acara ga masuk. hamsi dah ngomel2, gra2 tugas di emak. aaaaah.

g hari ini maen cs ma didi, dedi, n teddy. ngadu gitu, yang fragna paling tinggi, dy yang menang. pas pemanasan s g maen bagus. eh pas dah mulai ngitung g mala cacad. jadi dhe, didi yang menang. alhasil nama clan kita jd west-gaming. padahal tadina g mw nama clanna m@c-gaming. kan lebih keren gtu. T.T

well, keqna bakal jarang update nee. soalna banyak tugas dkk. dah masuk skul s. hehe. jd segini zaa yaa bwad hari ini. no quote for today. ciao. GB! :)

3rd day

wah, dah 3 hari ocha d sing. wew. ocha cpad pulaaaaaaang. :)
hr in g kesiangaan. huhu. ga ad ocha, jd ssh bangun. haha. *alibi*
utg masi keburu bwad k prisma. hehe.

well, hr ini g cma k gereja, ngeles ma maen bola doang. standart banged yaa? haha.
btw, maren g maen bang (red: beng). seruu, rasa2na g dah addicted ne ma bang. maen kartu gtu, keq polisi maling. seruseru. pengen maen lagi :) kapan yaa?

hoho. btw, bsoq dah masuk skul nee. damn! telad ga ya besok? tw ah, peduli ketek. kwakakaka.
o ia! ternyata, liburan thu tugas numpuk and guest whad? g belom kerjain SATU PUN!! AAAAAAAAH DAMN IT!! g begadang dhe ne hari. hikz.

hm, dah dhe, cape ne bis latian. hoho. lgs k quote za "nothing is impossible" well, singkat, standard tp bermakna banget guys :). maklum, td gereja khotbahna genean. hehe. dah yee, capee. GBu. be impact :)